i need to see fight club again. i'm forgetting some of my favorite lines. milf.

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an odd storm. an odd day. everything seemed unusual and diffent, for one reason or another. It was a really good day all told, from class, to Nicki's store, to Dairy Queen, then back to ben's house. The whole western sky on fire. pool, then walking back as every little while the sky would spark, lightening without thunder. American Pie. Walking around afterwards as the lightining continues it's show. On the way home, sitting for an hour under the overhang at Fred Myer watching the lighting, some close, seeming all around, some distant and hazy. One o clock in the morning, when with a gunshot the sky opened up, finally gathering the nerve to become the true storm it had been hinting at all night.

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screw my last post, i just went on an awesome walk up witham hill, it kicked ass.

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hello everyone, i am here to talk to you about how life can change around really fast. this afternoon i was having a good time hanging around a friends store, then brodie,lunchbox, that guy and i went to play pool, then, not more than half and hour ago, we watched american pie. now i am sitting at home bored off my ass. one of the reasons for my boredom is that this stupid lightning storm is really lame; there is hardly any thunder and no rain. plus there is a jack-russell terrior across the street that barks everytime there is a fucking thunderclap. i suppose there are more intense scenarios, like your office building being smashed into by an airplane, then collapsing before you realize what's going on. but in my life, boredom vs. doing stuff is about as severe as it gets.

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boo-yaw to brodie. i read the script this morning, and it's quite funny. huzzah and kudos.
also, i scoped out the school TV studio today. excellent. cameras, equipment, it looks like it will come in VERY useful. needs some cleaning up, however. i've also written up a sort of description for the news show. hopefully it will come to pass. boy do i hope. heh.
anyway, that's it for today, except that i'm hungry. and not looking foreward to german. :( but that's all. so bye now.

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accomplished something! well, sort of. My version of the script for Chiaman is kind of dine, sort of. Now, pending the completion of Topher's version and the final edit, all should be gravy. For a while at least.

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yes, that's right, it's time for my now-daily blog from multimedia tech. this one comes earlyin the class. i did my german homework just now, but i doubt it did it WELL. humph. anyway, last night i saw a production of les miserables. i feel that it was sort of ruined for me becuase i had such high expectations from what people had told me about the show. that's not to say it wasn't spectacular: it was, and i'm very glad i went and i enjoyed it a great deal. i just felt a little...let down. but it was still great, nonetheless.
at break today, i got a somewhat tasty little morsel resembling an egg mcmuffin for the low, low price of twenty-five cents. although half of the egg mcmuffin-things enlish muffin casing was stale, it was still a reasonably good meal (sort of) for one quarter of a dollar. it could not, of course, live up to the glory of the king of all twenty-five cents food, the divine home run pie, but it was still a enjoy purchase. i also procured a large chocolate cookie, which i then shared with the natives. the primitive hearts seemed to be touched by this small gesture of kindness. futher oberservations as they happen.
i've been thinking about mortality and morality alot lately, since the who plane-ing thing and since watching les miserables. the plane thing makes me think about how easy it is to die...the people int he world trade centers probably had no idea, no inkling, that this was their last day on this planet. they just look up and - holy shit - there's a plane about to crash into their building. it's that easy. a complety random (at least to them) act, and they're no more. as simple as that. i could walk out the door and get hit by a car. or shot. people might say it's outragous for me to be shot, just like that, for no reason, but if you would have asked someone a week ago, that probably would have said that planes crashing, intentionaly, into the world trade center was outragous. death can be completly random and un precedented. in that, i somewhat envy people in battles: at least they know they're probably going to die. they might even have a choice. which brings me to my next subject: morality. more specifically, in case you don't know (and i doubt this is the case with many people) one of the main plot points of les miserables is that a number of students and other memebers of the community are staging a rebellion; the play takes place and the beginning of the french revolution. the people on the baricade were willing to give their lives for nothing more than an idea. they belived in something so strongly that they were willing to die for it. and die they did. all of them but marius and valjean, who don't die becuase they're main characters. but it makes me think...would i be willing to do that? give my life to something i beleived in? what if nothing happened as a result of my death. we all know the french revolution happened, probably as a result of people like the ones on the barricade. but supose if i were to die for an ideal that my sacrfice would be in vain? my cause, my rebellion, would simply be passed by. my heroism, and that of my companions would go unremembed, and would have been for nothing. just becuase you do something brave doesn't mean it's going to change the world. so would it have been better for me to just stand down, and live? i don't believe in the afterlife, which means that if i die as a hero, i'm still dead. no everlasting paradise for lunchbox. i die, i fall, i rot in the ground. that's the end. so do i die, as an forgotten hero, or do i live, as a cowardly survivor.
a quandry.

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arg...this class is boring. nothing to do... filming needs to happen so that i can edit. grrr. maybe we should set a deadline for chiaman. that might get us moving. sigh... i wish i had some lunch.

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never been here,
never coming back
never want to think about the things that happened today
wanna lay down,
on the warm ground
think i'm gonna need a little time to my self

don't fall down now
you will never get up
don't fall down now
(don't fall down now)
don't fall down now
you will never get up
don't fall down now, now, now

this is the first verse and chorus of strawberry by everclear, it is a very cool song and i thought it sorta fit.

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i think i'd have to agree. i can't really say much about it, except that it really sucks that all those people died, but i wasn't really affected by it except for the general mood at school and such. it is a real shame when someone feels that they have resort to violence to get themselves recognized. this isn't only on the large scale, this is for any type of violence, a good example is school violence; a person is ignored or insulted or both, until they can't handle the strain any more and they snap... i feel that governments or organizations should be handled the same way; listen to what they have to say, and seriosly too, don't just pretend. and take what they say into account. it is just as important as anything you have to say, just in a different way. then when a decision is made that they feel is incorrect, back it so that they see the logic even if they disagree; if at all possible come to an agreement that gives both sides equal concessions. sadly this does not always work, but until you try, you will never know.

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well, as sick as i personally am of hearing about them, i feel i should say SOMETHING to address today's events. by today's events, i am of course refering to the multipule, uh, plane-ings, of major goverment buildings and such.
as to what i should say...i'm not really sure. there's alot of pain, suffering and loss going on as a result, that i honestly can't imagine or begin to understand. if, for some ungody reason, someone who was personally affected by this tradgedy is reading this, i'm sorry for what happened, and, pointless as it may be, you have my heartfelt condolences. really. despite how fake this sounds, i really mean it, and i hope you feel better as soon as possible. i guess it's pretty pathetic that someone on an site no one reads except for my friends, is appologizing for something like this. even EBAY has a public condolence for heavens sakes. and penny arcade. but i still feel like i should say something. and if you know me, and how i usually react to "world crisis," that's something. not much, but something.
so in conclusion, sorry everyone. i wish it hadn't happened.

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like ubertopher, i'm bored. i already know how to do everything we're doing, and i've done it already. i wanna do video!
:(
well, hopefully we'll have a script we can do something with soon. whoo-ah.

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i am so completely bored right now, i hate having a b-block study hall. there is nobody else who doesn't have a class right now. i wish i could have something to do, but no. stupid schedule.

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i just realised that my last post kinda sucked, it was translated to many time, this one is better it is only translated into italian and back.

You cannot resisterle that it is in your boneses is in yours zucchino and your domestic turn you cannot evitarli is in medium molecules of the oxygen air and of carbon dioxide in the dreams we only see that what means that the extension towards the outside our hands holds over its but when we wake up it we are all cancelled and so as to it only seems in the dreams Walks fine asks to it ballarlo says that " hey the child I as soon as he could prenderlo to the probability " opinion " is buoa a what that fairies to float in the air that the way is here way I will crush graceful yours toenails in thousand parts.

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well duh

i probably should have mentioned something about weezer in my last post, and how i really like them and their music, as to avoid the appearant confusion that caused.

bah

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dude, check this out, this is 'only in dreams translated into german, then into french, then back into english. please enjoy. (unfortunatly some things didn't translate very well.)

**time-out** it can not him résisterqui him them bone be, it them mark be and their head travel capacity it not it éviterelle which average molecule that of air of oxygen and of carbon dioxide de carbone be only that dream voirnous that him mean that carry our hand above them however himself stop, if all we him be remove awake and thus seem it only that dream him go until him demanderlui, to him dance known as that " hey baby me probability " him take can right legend, " which him good thing be, him which to air swim zerquetsche.

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i didn' uh, write that. just so you know. all credit goes to weezer. the song's "only in dreams." i like it. w00t
speaking of things i like, i saw "the warrior and the princess," which is very cool. you should all go see it. for those of you in corvallis, its playing at the avalon. go! go now!
and speaking of things in general, we need a new design. poo.

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wow, that's lovely, especialy the part about toenails. almost sounds brittish.

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yay, it's working again. I really like that song, though i always found that toenail line a little weird. well it seems that the next, second official project of Ben's Pants productions will be entitled "Chiaman". That's right, Chia like the delightful clay heads. It will actually be a remake...of sorts. This means that my vampire movie will once again take it's place on the shelf for a little while, but it's not exactly the kind of movie we needed to make. not by a long shot. I mean, our second film should be something that i would be willing to show to my parents, teacher, or pastor. The script for chiaman is in the works right now. I'm writing a sort of script, but the writing for the project will probably be headed by ubertopher. I believe that it will infact kick ass, and do it with a maximum of names taken and a minimum of smoked monkey pole. I'd appreciate it if any fans would cheer for us, or better yet give us some cash you stingey bastards. Brodie(i love that name) out.

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You can't resist her
She's in your bones
She's in your marrow
And your ride home
You can't avoid her
She's in the air
In between molecules
Of oxygen and carbon dioxide

Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But when we wake
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams

You walk up to her
Ask her to dance
She says "hey baby
I just might take the chance"
You say "It's a good thing
That you float in the air
That way there's no way
I will crush your pretty toenails into a thousand pieces.

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